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Wednesday, October 30, 2013

Checking In

No photos today, again. So sorry. Actually, let me go grab one quick of what I've been using to de-stress with.
Okay, back. As you can see I've spun a little. I finished up that larger bobbin on the lower left and it is now in it's rest state until I n-ply it later in the week. The smaller bobbin in the upper rights is the merino/silk/bamboo mix I started last night in a continued effort to be quiet and relaxed. I am spinning it quite small for a finished three ply. I'm hoping to weave with it. And, I figured out I need to wander away from the blues for a while.

So, what I really came here to say... I went to the Doctor, and there really was something wrong. Not major anymore since it appears that I am already in the recovery state, but I am still working hard at feeling better. I managed to get viral meningitis. No idea how. As I've thought about it I realized that my neck pain that I was experiencing a couple three weeks back was probably an early sign that something was wrong. Instead I had to wait for the passing out and fainting to get the clue.  Anyway, Just wanted to share that with you all. For anyone that is worried, it is not near as severe as bacterial meningitis and rather difficult to contract. Yes I managed it, now will Publisher Clearing House knock on my dang door! I could use it to pay off some bills!

Anyway, hope you all have a good night. I just wanted to let you all know how I was doing after that last post. I will slowly bring the anxiety level back down. Now, I'm going to go offer the dogs another walk before spinning for a bit again before bed. I have a 12hr workday tomorrow. And on that note, Happy Halloween!

I love Halloween and I didn't even buy a pumpkin for a single jack o'lantern. What does that tell you of my mind set as of late?


Monday, October 28, 2013

Stress Ball

What's a stress ball? I think I am.

I have never felt like I am overly stressed before. I have felt run down, tired, and at times angry, but never overly stressed. Maybe it's a sign of maturing that I let the anger go, but it's left me with just the overwhelming stress lately, and I'm sick of it.

Quite literally I think. I have had a couple health issues this last week, and it dawned on me as I lay sweating like a pig in bed last night that I think I'm doing a lot of it to myself. Now, I think there is really something join ton and I'm being seen by a doc, but I don't think I'm helping it.

What's stressing me? Well, a lot of things, many that I haven;t brought up here. Some of them are personal, like any american, some are financial. Some professionally, and some are professionally but not mine. And obviously, some are medical, which leads to the financial. See the looping?

The guy even noted the other night that he hadn't seen me work on any knitting, spinning, or weaving. And he's right. I haven't. I can't seem to relax enough to sit and do it. And since that is one of my greatest stress relievers, what does that say?

So, here I am. No pictures, just saying, "I'm stressed" in hopes that realizing it, stating it, and owning it allows me to take a deep breath and relax a bit tonight so I can get some real sleep.

Today, was a crazy day. I am finished with structured training. For those who don't know, I changed jobs. I am working as a call taker for 911 dispatch, and I so don't feel ready for it. Can you spot one of my stressors? I have even been dreaming of it. To throw in that we have some serious ambiguity as to our future here in Casper...

This is my plan. I'm going to warm up with some warm mint tea. I'm join got spin for a bit, then I'm going to take a hot shower and go to bed. Fingers crossed. It always looks better in the morning, no?

Thanks for e-listening. I'm sorry about the vagueness. Part of it is due to some issues aren't mine to share. Part is due because I don't have answers to share. And another large part I simply can't share yet until I know more. It's that damn reclusive streak in me. But soon, I hope to have some semblance of a grasp on my idea of how the world should turn and be able to fill in some big blanks.


PS: I will work on getting some more pictures! Maybe if we feet good snow I can get doe kids our snowshoeing on Friday of the world stops spinning so fast (seriously, I'm having vertigo issues).

Sunday, October 20, 2013

Milestones and Understatements

Let's start with the latter... I'm tired. But to say I'm just tired is an understatement of epic proportions. I've had two hours of sleep in the last 28 hours. I'll survive, but I thought in case this post got a little... side tracked, I would put that out there.

Now, for the milestone. Somewhere in the last few weeks when I have been distracted from blogging, I passed 10000 views. I know, in the grand scheme of the great blogs, this isn't much, but it's a milestone to me and my little blog.

With the official stuff out of the way, let's move on to the other stuff. I don't have a lot of other stuff to truly share with you. I have once again been buried in work so I have had little interaction out there in the real world with people that actually breath and speak. And since I normally get my stories from them, I don't have a good one for you. I have some truly funny works stories from the week but I don't do that. One, I could get fired, and two, I just can't break my own morals enough to do that. People call me when they need help, and not matter how ridiculous I may find their positions, it's not right to kick them when they're down. When I need to do that I go check out fail army. Hey, we all have our failings, and I love to watch people hurt themselves.

I know I stated before that I have been lacking photos as of late, so I tried snapping a few for us this afternoon. Sorry, being tired I did a crappy job with lighting and cropping them for posting. Oh well...
This week Shiela once again did what she wanted. It pays to be a 17 year old bitch of the highest order.

I have still not gotten the bill from the electrician for the work they did bringing our meter and fuse box up to code so that we could have out power turned off. To be honest, I am kind of okay with that. It's hard to keep my head in the sand with the numbers right in front of me on a nicely formatted bill.

I snapped some pictures of our damage.
Both of our cottonwoods lost over half of their canopies.
The one in the back still has a lot of dead fall caught in the beaches. Let's hope when the winter winds finally clear some of it, it doesn't do a lot of damage on the way down. Most of that lower canopy to the right is actually the apple tree that faired amazingly well for the cottonwood dropping large limbs into it.
I finally got a picture of the finished cotton/linen scarf that has been done for a while now. I still need to do some trimming but otherwise it's finished.
As you can see here with some of this months fiber club, I have not re-raked the lawns for what has fallen this week.This fiber is a 100% Blue Faced Leicester combed top that I am about half way done spinning. Yes yes, for those that have seen me work on it, I am no further than I was last week. Remember that busy part? Yeah, wasn't joking.

Then there is one of favorites I have ever gotten from Huckleberry. Beachcombing. I did it as a three ply crepe and ended up with about 116 yards of DK to worsted weight yarn. I love the colors here. It is a 60% Polwarth wool and 40% silk. It was lovely to spin.

And then there was "The Soft Dying Day". This is another of those that I would never have put these colors together yet they are beautiful when it is all spun up. This fiber is 100% Falkland with about 200 yards in a Worsted weight 2 ply. I am always amazed at the eye for color some people have.

I have been trying to spin a little bit larger. I realize now why I don't prefer too. Only getting about 116 yards out of such wonderful fiber makes me sad.
Unlike these two that I finally got wrapped up. Both skeins are a fingering weight and almost 400 yards apiece of a Merino/Silk/Bamboo mix. The fiber was lovely to work with. I will definetly order from Wooly's again.

But, back trees, I forgot to discuss the real sadness. Remember my beautiful Purple robe Locust that grew so much this year? Well, the cottonwood coming don broke it good

The top is gone and it split the truck down the middle. We'll see what comes in the spring, but considering all of our troubles getting these ones established, this was a bit of a heart brake.

Okay, I am at that state where I am so tired I'm freezing because my body has given up the effort of staying warm, so I am off to bed with the furry beasts and the electric mattress pad. Have a good night all.

Oh, really quick before I forget, you ravelry members out there, we have a new group called the Wyoming Fiber Skeinks if you are interested in joining. We're just a group of Wyomingite Fiber lovers of all kinds.

Sunday, October 13, 2013

It's about time

I just got in from working on cleaning up the yard some more before the next storm moves in tomorrow and makes another mess of it all. As I was raking up the last bag worth I was thinking to myself, "You know, you really should get a blog post up tonight."

And since I'm not working tonight, here I am, sitting at the computer writing this to you all. I hope those that have been bugging me are grateful. I myself am hopeful to peruse some of the blogs I have lost contact with over this unintentional break from the modern world. I promise, no politics. I just don't have the stomach for it today.

So, what's been going on in our world here you might ask? Well, we fostered this silly mutt in a last minute move to keep him from being euthanized at the shelter.
He was supposed to be a troubled young soul, but he was a breeze. His name is Bob, and he was a sweet heart. He just went to a new home today and I already kind of miss this one. If I had room for another he would have made the short list for sure, and not many of the fosters do. I love them all, but when they go to a new home it's always a happy day, with a relaxed evening following it. Even my dogs seem to take a breath after a foster leaves.
But Bob here, was a special one. He was in bad shape when he came here. It's hard to see because of his fluffy coat but he was skinny. We got a few pounds on him before he left. He's the only foster dog that has come to us knowing the joys of belly rubs and not having to learn the joy while living here. Someone cared for him and did some training with him. It's a shame he ended up at the pound in the shape he was in, but I'm glad we got the silly boy to a new home.

As I was heading to pick his happy butt up from the pound I got hit by a truck.
My poor little soul has about 4,000.00 in damage. She is going into the shop tomorrow to get the work done on her. The night after we got the first of our two storms. When I got up I found this in the front yard.
I thought about moving the car then thought, "Maybe the next one will total the vehicle and then I can get a new one."  It didn't work.

As you can see the storm caught us with leaves still on the trees. That is what wreaked havoc and took out the power through the area. We fiinally got ours back on Thursday evening about 7 or 8 while I was at work. That left us without power just about 7 hours shy of a full week. We now have our fuse box and meter up to code. Thursday they were here all day working on it before we could get the power company out to hook us up. I got about 45 minutes sleep that day before having to go into work... Because my stress level wasn't high enough lately. I ended up being sent home because as the lead stated, "I can see the tired all over you."

Today as I was doing some more raking and running of the chainsaw to add to the fire wood pile we depleted heating the house this last week, I found this.
I thought it was kind of cool. It looks like an oak leaf in a cottonwood leaf. It's what got me thinking that I needed to make a blog post actually. What few posts I have had lately have been high on my own lofty opinions (well, maybe some of my opinions are more... shall we say, earthy. But we shall not discuss that at this time), and very low on photo content. For that I apologize and am going to try to work on.

Through all this, the dogs have been a bit stressed. The poor old girl with the rickety joints did not fair well without her heated beds and warm house. She is loosening back up over the last couple days though. Sullivan and his feline buddy Smudge were often caught near one another for comfort and warmth.
Of course they moved when his head was next to hers on the chair and they were nuzzling one another like eskimo kisses. Brats. You don't think of Great; well, mediocre Danes being cold but he doesn't have a lot of insulation and a short coat so he was often covered up by that green blanket at night when the fire would get low.
The Guy said the night the power came on they all seemed to sleep like rocks and were sluggish in the morning which is unusual for the pack. They are typically up and raring for breakfast and the morning walk by 4.

The chainsaw freaks them out a little bit too and we've been wielding it frequently over the last several days. I think we are going to need to get a new chain on it after all the use it's been seeing, or at the least sharpen the one that is on it. On Tuesday as I was running loads from our yard and the neighbors to the dump areas, I was loading the kids up one by one on each trip as I went. I realized we had never taken Sullivan the big guy in the pick up for a ride. And I now know why. A small truck cab and a Mediocre Dane... Brings a whole new meaning to whiplash, and I don't mean the neck injury. That tail to the head hurts!

As for my fiber crafts, very little has gotten done. When home I have been working on the clean up process when it's light out, and without power, when it's dark it's really dark.  I did get a little spinning done by firelight.
Not much, Just enough to keep the fingers nimble.
Knitting has been at a stand still and since I got the cotton/linen scarf off the loom I have not had the time to re-warp her. I am also kind of waiting on the last of a yarn/supply order to come in to. I have a project that requires those last parts that I am itching to do.

Well, that's about all I have at the moment. I need to go find something to do to keep my eyelids open just a bit longer tonight. My two hour nap when I got home this morning from work before taking Bob to meet his new family is wearing a bit thin. Hope you all have a great night.


Friday, October 11, 2013

And there was light

From a bulb that is... Meaning I have power! But now I have to get ready to work so I'll catch up more later. Have a good night everyone.

Tuesday, October 8, 2013

As Far As Excuses Go...

It's a good one. We still have no power. I sit here tonight in a coffee shop charging my phone and realize I should say something on my blog. I'm not so upset at the government shut down I am striking from blogging. I can't physically blog. No electricity means no computer, which means no internet and since I am saving cell juice in case I have a true emergency... It's a blog shut down for now.

I hope we have power back on before the weather gets cold again since we are currently heating the house with the fireplace and eating hot meals out and getting hot showers at the gym. It's gotten old, really fast. And dammit, I have a lot of other peoples blogs to catch up on! Anyway, to the gym with me so I can shower off the stink I made hauling branches from ours and our neighbors yards to the dump.  Someday, I shall have electricity again.

Be safe!

Thursday, October 3, 2013

And Now I'm Mad

I had a lot of comments and emails regarding my last posts. Some who agreed, some who didn't, and it's all okay. I find it funny that those that didn't agree chose to email me only, but that's for another day.

Mainly, I was kind of shocked about how many people stated it was a rant on my part. I didn't feel like it was a rant, and believe me, I know how to rant. But when I wrote that I can't even say that I was angry. I was dismayed by our governments actions. I was frustrated. But not ranting, slobbering, fist shaking mad, and I apologize if it read that way. But after watching the news tonight, I'm down right pissed.

I know! Why did I watch the news? I know better than that. It always just gets me going. And what exactly got me going?


Sorry, I couldn't figure out how to embed the video.

That's right, that's one of our members of Congress trying to hold a Park Ranger responsible for the actions of the Government. You know, the one he is part of and that she is sworn to uphold the decisions of? Yeah, it's all her fault. Not his. Not at all.

Okay, so I've been trying to keep my mouth shut about all this. And it's been hard. All week I've been in a room of fairly mouthy opinionated people who's political views don't mesh with mine. And I've been good. I've been downright angelic sitting there with my mouth shut. But I can't keep it shut after watching an attack like that on someone who was not part of that decision process by someone who is an active member of that decision making process.

And my response is? Mr Neugebauer, Shut up. And no, it's not Congressman Neugebauer, because your fired. You failed to do your job, again. That equals, you're done. Pack your bags, go home, and by the way, you can pay for that ticket. Buh bye...

And that goes for all of them. If I were to not do my job over and over again meanwhile pointing at someone else and saying, "It's their fault." I would fully expect to be fired. I think it's time that they are held to that. No impeachment, that will cost us money. Just pack your bags, empty your desks and go away. Not even home because all those people who voted for you are there and I can't say you'll be welcomed home and you don't get a security detail anymore. You failed, you flunked, get your crap and leave. And while we re-fill those positions, their pay goes to our troops. Their pay goes to actually funding a medical coverage change instead of arguing about something that was already passed.

And that my dears, is a rant, because I was actually mad as I wrote that. And it felt kind of good.